i'm charging now.....

am i too pessimistic?not really la...i like to smile ah!!people said smile always can assure us have a nice day.so do i!!i'd read all the comments that you all posted to me. thanks so much. that is the first time i realised that people can write comment on my blog!!!!AMAZING!!!!!HAHA.i'm so slow react rite?HAHA!!nevermind la,i'm always like that one...hehe....allright, i know i should face this IELTS or any failure with a open and optimistic mind. i enjoyed this holiday and this holiday really reacded right on time. it enable me to relax my mind and my tired body........it's really tired to be a student. but what to do?there is still a long long way to go for the rest of my life. thus,i need more time to charge up my mind so that i can restore enough energy to continue my journey of life. friends, don't worry la. lets pray for our IELTS ba!! namo amitatha:)

home again~~

Absolutely happy can go back home. This is the most comfort and peace place to live in. Yet, i felt guilty faced to mother. As i know and the God also give me a hint that i will not fly with you all. i'm seriously saying that i will not fly. i really did bad in the IELTS especially the reading test. i know all of you are so caring and so kind, but you all no need to console me, as i din feel sad, i know i have put on all my effort in this test, yet, there is something that out of my expectation, i thought i can do well in this before i went for the test. i'm quite confident that i can do well in the test because i'm considered well-prepared,also, i have the support from all of my friends. well, incontrovertibly i was disappointed to myself that although i have put so much effort, sacrificied my leisure time, but i do not get any return from my effort. that is really sad, and therefore i put that feeling as the title of my blog. besides that, i feel that the gap between you all and me is widenning. that's why i seldom join you guys for any kind of gathering. i wan to abondone myself as i don't se i'm a part of you all. sorry to say that...as i really feel sad to be with you all.it's really hurt... anyway, i still wish you all can fly to pursue your dreams. lastly, all the best to you all and good luck. i'm glad to have you all as my friend. i'll keep this precious memory for the rest of my life. bye~~

no title.........

today came back from college saw a banner saying that there is a festival activity held by the Buddhism Association of Subang Jaya. if possible, i think i will participate it. is is about a praying for the ancestors. i wish i can do something for dad before i leave. really so long time din dream of him already....miss him so much. friends, do love your parents as much as you could, you will get their blessing and i believe they will love you so much as well.

feeling between a mother and a daughter

today, i had a conference with a mother. is Ain's mother. it gave me a feeling of warm and caring to a daughter. this mother is very nice. i also din realised that she is so friendly. we chat about many things. but mostly are about family and studies. after the conversation, i feel so miss my mum. thus, i called her without any intention or any special thing want to chat with her,i jz want to hear her voice. so mama feel a bit shocked when she answered my call,as i never call her in noon. in addition, today is Parent-teacher day. althought mum can't come here today, but i feel better now since i had contacted her initiatively. the following is to my mother:"mum,i'm not dare and feel uneasy to tell you how much i love you, but by blogging, i can show my love perfectly as you never know what did i wrote here...telling you how much i afflicted in Taylor's and how grateful of me to you for every encouragement." jz keep this as my little secret between my close friend who are viewing this blog. :)

so lucky to have you

i was shocked when mum told me that you hadmailed me all the winter clothings from Japan. it was really out of my expectation. when you promisedme before you left Malaysia, i thought you were joking. also, if you are not kidding you might forget about it when you go there. but is really thank you, although i have not seen those clothes, but i can assure you that i like it so much. i appreciate everything that you gift me. you are such a sweet sister. i know not only you are caring me, almost every relative that know me they also praying for my succeess in studying overseas. you encouragement, supports and advices motivate me a lot. i know i cant let you all disappointed to me, and also everyone that helped me to get this scholarship. i'm grateful to you all. i hope and strongly wish that i can achieve my dream. don't mistaken, my dream is not to become a biotechnologist. for me, as long as i can earn money with my knowledge and efforts, i will not reject any kind of accupation. my dream is to make everyone besides me happy and don't sad because of my failure. people happy, i will feel pleasure as well. thank you sister Pei Hua.