Will You Be There

Hold Me
Like The River Jordan
And I Will Then Say To Thee
You Are My Friend

Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Would You Be There?

Mary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Scold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?

But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human

Everyone's Taking Control Of Me
Seems That The World's
Got A Role For Me
I'm So Confused
Will You Show To Me
You'll Be There For Me
And Care Enough To Bear Me

(Hold Me) show me
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
told me
(Softly Then Boldly)
yeah
(Carry Me There)
I'm Only Human

(Lead Me)
hold me
(Love Me And Feed Me)
yea yeah
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
yeah
(I Will Feel Blessed)
I'm Only Human

(Carry)
Carry
(Carry Me Boldly)
Carry yeah
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
yeah
(Carry Me There)
I'm Only Human

(Save Me)
save me
(Heal Me And Bathe Me)
lift me up, lift me up
(Softly You Say To Me)
(I Will Be There)
I Will Be There

(Lift Me)
i'm gonna care
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me Boldly)
yeah
(Show Me You Care)
Show Me You Care

(Hold Me)
whoooo
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
i get lonely some times
(Softly Then Boldly)
i get lonely
(Carry Me There)
yeah yeah carry me there
yeah yeah yeah

[Spoken]
In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

*i think the last part where Jackson monologued...
is touching...*

still don't have the courage to step in Lucky 97...

after the incident in china town, i still not dare to step in the market...
actually i wish to buy something that can only buy in that market, but when i think of that place, i think of that incident as well...this inhibits me to go...although i really wish to buy my food storage from there.
why am i such a coward??who can help me? give me strength to face my fear...
feel that my heart is 空空的...

he is good:)

i have to clarify one thing here...the senior that i mentioned in my previous blog is very nice,very smart,generous,caring and helpful.He teaches me a lot of things and help me using his knowledges and experiences. i'm not saying that he is bad or anything negative.He is a good senior. i respect him very much de:)
so,guys...don't worry about me, seniors here are very helpful and nice,
they brought us traveled around Edmonton and taught me a lot of things...
they also cooked for us that make me feel like a family gathering...very close...so warm:)

him...

sad...not because of getting any result today...is because i met with a senior that is smart in his studies. I really can feel the pressure when i talked to him. In fact,i met him because i have some physics questions to ask him....i think this is the only reason i will find him and he will meet and help me...But, when i started asking him about the questions, he said to me,"is so easy..." he also suggested me not to take physics for my second-year. i know he is sincerely advices me, and i also accepted his suggestion that i will drop physics in my second year...is just i'm too tired to take this course...physics is a study about something that are abstract. i cant see force or energy with me.what i can see is just the effect of these concepts...for those who loves and likes physics very much sure will disagree with me. well, this is just my feeling in physics. what really makes me sad is that i feel myself very stupid in front of him...i cant even force myself to give him a smile after he taught me...i have already cried in my heart...but he won't know this feeling...for him,100-level physics course is just a piece of cake,but since i have no strong basic in physics, i found it very hard to follow up...he makes me think of many negative feelings...after he left,i cant hold my tears anymore....i just couldn't...when i came back to room, i did not told Kin what happened to me, cause she will not understand this feeling as she might never feel the feeling of failure after putting hard efforts...this feeling is what i usually experience...i did put in efforts to study,but why it doesn't reflect my efforts in my results?? who can i blame??i know this is no one to blame because this is what i deserved...friends around me are helping me all the times...Kin asked me what reason makes me did not quit from this scholarship, i said:" because i have you guys..." I'm serious... Because i have you guys that supports me all the time,that's why i cant give up...no matter how hard it is, how much i have to sacrifice, i will do my best,continue this studies until i graduate...thank you guys...thanks for the senior as well...he helps me a lot in my studies...undoubtedly, he is giving his advise to me,i appreciate it...

don't cry...

i feel myself being so bad...i make my mother worries of me...she is too miss me,yet i'm not that miss her...sometimes,i just have no time to think of her because i'm just too busy with studies...I'm sorry...actually i love her so much...is just that i did not show this to her...she feel sad because she saw i lose weight...she cried while talking with me...i feel so bad...mother, i will take good care of myself, even if i lose weight,this will not affect my health. i will stay healthy until i get back to M'sia...Just want to let you know there are a lot of people take care of me, your daughter is very lucky already...good night:) you must take care too...miss you...

suddenly want to write something...But this thought i cant exposed out...how to say leh...haiz...just forget it la,is not that important though...talking about decision making,i don't know whether i have made the right decision,but this decision makes me feel like crying...i feel so pain...pain in my heart...will i feel regret???