goodbye Chinese New Year

All celebrations for Chinese New Year have completed...now is time to focus on studies.
it was really fun to celebrate festival with a lot of close seniors.it's really feel like a gathering in a family, sit around a round table, chatting, eating and playing cards!!oh~i'm gonna miss this moment very much....felt so warm in my heart,i like this feeling very much...
however, the food for formal dinner was not delicious as i expected...i rather pay the $20 to my seniors and ask them to cook for us.haha!!
ok la,since i didn't take photos with my camera,so i unable to upload it on facebook. hoping that someone will tag me lo...
新年进步!!!

end of story....

i have decided to forget about it before i'm going too deep...
is time to wake up from dream...this story shouldn't have started initially...
maybe i just too lonely at that time,but now i'd used to the loneliness ad...or perhaps,i have accepted Kin as my intimate and i can share my worries with her ad...
anyway,is good to make this decision now,so that i will not get hurt too deeply.
i promise myself i will live happily and forget this story...
be friend is good as friendship will never end...
close file...

random...

i should not be that pessimistic because i'm much luckier than many people...before this, i was complaining about my TA, how bad he was and how ignorant he was...but after listened to other people's complains, i realized that my TA is better than theirs and i know i still can do better next time. this really makes me so relieved because at least i have someone to talk with when i'm down, pissed-off or lonely...
ok la,that's what i want to share today:)

"just let it be" is just an alibi to face it...

the starting of new semester indicates the starting of my nightmares...i just putting too much stress on myself because this new semester gonna be a hard term...although i have other thing bothering me,yet i keep avoiding not to think about that as i'd already have many things to think about.i'm not sure whether i'm doing it right (avoiding some problem that i'm afraid to face), but what i can do now is just keep that away from my thought and try to be relax.
i did something that i've never do before.for some reasons,i don't know whether it is worth to do this,but i will continue until i'm done with what i'm doing now.
wish me luck and i will try to be happy :)

after the break

It's been a while from previous blog.I'd used the X'mas break efficiently to relax and do the things that i like.i've fully charged from this break and going to face the challenges fro this new semester.i know it's gonna be a hard term,yet, i just hope i can cope with it as i know anyway i still have to face this for the rest of my study years...5 courses in a term shouldn't be that hard as many people also can cope with it,it is just that i'm not the one who can do well in each course.haha
there are a lot of things happen during the X'mas break, such as learn to ski,knitting and skating.hmm...the happiest thing is that i can sleep soundly during the break,that supplied me with energy to go out everyday!! :P
ok,i got to continue my work lo,if got time,i will update my blog ya!
take care guys:)

i cant breath...

is getting worse...last time i didn't feel this so frequently...now,after i ate almost full, i feel very hard to breath...must sit very straight or walk so that i can breath...even doctor also have no idea how come i will experience this...doctors from M'sia cant heal me,now i hope the doctor here can figure out what is my problem...
since i always experience the feeling or having difficulty to breath, i really understand what does "life" means...if "life" is just about breathing and this proves that we are alive, then i know i'm dying...
Today,i have done my physics exam...not that hard for most of the students,in fact i think the same...the questions is not that hard,but usually when i feel like this,my result turns out is very bad...i know this because this happens in almost every exams that i have done...
now, i can only pray that my result is around class average...i cant disappoint those people that help me all the way from M'sia to Canada until now:)
Gambateh!!

Will You Be There

Hold Me
Like The River Jordan
And I Will Then Say To Thee
You Are My Friend

Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Would You Be There?

Mary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Scold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?

But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human

Everyone's Taking Control Of Me
Seems That The World's
Got A Role For Me
I'm So Confused
Will You Show To Me
You'll Be There For Me
And Care Enough To Bear Me

(Hold Me) show me
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
told me
(Softly Then Boldly)
yeah
(Carry Me There)
I'm Only Human

(Lead Me)
hold me
(Love Me And Feed Me)
yea yeah
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
yeah
(I Will Feel Blessed)
I'm Only Human

(Carry)
Carry
(Carry Me Boldly)
Carry yeah
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
yeah
(Carry Me There)
I'm Only Human

(Save Me)
save me
(Heal Me And Bathe Me)
lift me up, lift me up
(Softly You Say To Me)
(I Will Be There)
I Will Be There

(Lift Me)
i'm gonna care
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me Boldly)
yeah
(Show Me You Care)
Show Me You Care

(Hold Me)
whoooo
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
i get lonely some times
(Softly Then Boldly)
i get lonely
(Carry Me There)
yeah yeah carry me there
yeah yeah yeah

[Spoken]
In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

*i think the last part where Jackson monologued...
is touching...*