the starting of "battle"

now is the time for me to start the battle with myself...but one thing streaming in my mind which makes me hard to focus on studies...i know i shouldn't have that thought in my mind because it will not help me in any way,worse to worse,it might affect my studies. but sometimes this thing also motivates me when i was down. the memories are very sweet (at least it is sweet in my thought), and some are interesting...i realized that i couldn't force myself to forget this, therefore i just accept it and try my best to make it the motivation for me to study. family's support is very important too!!because when i think of them,i will feel warm,just like the lyric below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aPKgbmcuOMk&feature=PlayList&p=214AE0F0EA17BE9D&playnext_from=PL&index=0&playnext=1
this is really a good song (at least i think the lyrics suits my feeling now in Edmonton.)
i miss him...i really miss him...everyday i'm counting...how many days since i last chatted with him...does he miss him too??but i already know the answer,there is no use to hope or imagine the answer that i want to know...he wont miss me....

Aurora

i couldn't believe that i saw aurora the first time in my life in Elk Island National Park!it was really amazing and beautiful...staring at this phenomena,i couldn't think of anything.my brain was empty and my facial expression filled with jovial!i was very excited and amazed by the scenery in front of me!it was light green with different patterns on the sky.i thought aurora is just a static light shine in the sky,yet i was wrong until i saw it by myself.Aurora was a moving pattern of the light in the night sky.As described by Jeff,it was like a piece of paper waving in the sky.sometimes it shone above the horizontal level of it initial position. then,it faded away from here and move to the other side of the sky...when it had occupied the north part of the sky,it then opened up a channel in the middle part of the sky just like the way we open up a curtain of a window. it was really an amazing night show in the sky!Aurora appeared for about 15 minutes and it just slowly faded away...however, the show will eternally remained in my mind as the most memorable memory in Edmonton!:)
on my way back to campus,i saw the night view of Edmonton.though the blinking roadway decoration and highway lamps were so attractive, yet it still couldn't replace the amazing northen light! it will be the most astonished light show that i have ever seen in my life!i hope i can have another chance to see it again:)

goodbye Chinese New Year

All celebrations for Chinese New Year have completed...now is time to focus on studies.
it was really fun to celebrate festival with a lot of close seniors.it's really feel like a gathering in a family, sit around a round table, chatting, eating and playing cards!!oh~i'm gonna miss this moment very much....felt so warm in my heart,i like this feeling very much...
however, the food for formal dinner was not delicious as i expected...i rather pay the $20 to my seniors and ask them to cook for us.haha!!
ok la,since i didn't take photos with my camera,so i unable to upload it on facebook. hoping that someone will tag me lo...
新年进步!!!

end of story....

i have decided to forget about it before i'm going too deep...
is time to wake up from dream...this story shouldn't have started initially...
maybe i just too lonely at that time,but now i'd used to the loneliness ad...or perhaps,i have accepted Kin as my intimate and i can share my worries with her ad...
anyway,is good to make this decision now,so that i will not get hurt too deeply.
i promise myself i will live happily and forget this story...
be friend is good as friendship will never end...
close file...

random...

i should not be that pessimistic because i'm much luckier than many people...before this, i was complaining about my TA, how bad he was and how ignorant he was...but after listened to other people's complains, i realized that my TA is better than theirs and i know i still can do better next time. this really makes me so relieved because at least i have someone to talk with when i'm down, pissed-off or lonely...
ok la,that's what i want to share today:)

"just let it be" is just an alibi to face it...

the starting of new semester indicates the starting of my nightmares...i just putting too much stress on myself because this new semester gonna be a hard term...although i have other thing bothering me,yet i keep avoiding not to think about that as i'd already have many things to think about.i'm not sure whether i'm doing it right (avoiding some problem that i'm afraid to face), but what i can do now is just keep that away from my thought and try to be relax.
i did something that i've never do before.for some reasons,i don't know whether it is worth to do this,but i will continue until i'm done with what i'm doing now.
wish me luck and i will try to be happy :)

after the break

It's been a while from previous blog.I'd used the X'mas break efficiently to relax and do the things that i like.i've fully charged from this break and going to face the challenges fro this new semester.i know it's gonna be a hard term,yet, i just hope i can cope with it as i know anyway i still have to face this for the rest of my study years...5 courses in a term shouldn't be that hard as many people also can cope with it,it is just that i'm not the one who can do well in each course.haha
there are a lot of things happen during the X'mas break, such as learn to ski,knitting and skating.hmm...the happiest thing is that i can sleep soundly during the break,that supplied me with energy to go out everyday!! :P
ok,i got to continue my work lo,if got time,i will update my blog ya!
take care guys:)